Personal change and growth generally happens slowly. One’s political beliefs may shift over one’s lifetime, or a commitment to health and fitness may slowly be fostered. But generally these changes happen over a length of time, and in relative isolation from other changes.
Every once in a while, however, some belief that is fundamental to your worldview gets torn away. Like pulling out the bottom card in a house of cards, the rest comes tumbling down and must be rebuilt. Suddenly, change is thrust upon you, and you must deal with it. It’s at times like these that life gives you a reset button. All of a sudden, you have a fresh start to define who you are. You have a new chance to redefine yourself and cast yourself in a new light.Continue Reading
Today’s entry should be short, because not much happened last night. I worked from 5:30-9:30 PM, so it conveniently cut out the time I sometimes spend hanging out with my friends on Sunday nights. Whatever. When I got home, there was a message from Jeff, but since I didn’t feel like hanging out anyways, I just didn’t call back. Besides, I don’t have his cell phone number written down. Anyways, work was alright. I was working with a guy named Eric, who seems pretty cool, besides being a bit crude like most guys are. The important thing that happened last night was that I got to know some of the people there a bit better. Eric told me a few things about the people there – a few of the things he said were bad, but a few were good as well, so that may help me in the future. I just still feel like “the new guy” right now. After all, someone called me that last night. I still don’t “fit in,” but I know that it will come with time; I just have to be patient and keep getting to know people.
Anyways, as I mentioned in the last entry, yesterday I talked to Pastor Al about the Bible study and how best to set it up. I suggested doing it on Thursdays at the church if it was free then, so he was going to check into that. At lunchtime, my mom asked me what Pastor Al…Continue Reading
Yesterday was pretty cool. It was a lot better than I had expected it to be, anyways. I slept in as late as I could, and then got up, hoping that someone would call me to do something with me. Since I worked Friday and today, I was hoping yesterday that someone would want to do something with me so I could actually do it and not have to say, “Sorry, I have to work.”
Lunch rolled around, and no one had phoned. By this time, I had remembered that Melissa and her friend Lisa had told me they were doing something with Jake and me. I figured that they would have phoned me up by that time, though. Eventually, around 2:00 PM, I decided I might as well call Melissa and at least see what was going on there, so if nothing was happening, I could do something else. We ended up talking for about an hour, mostly going back and forth about saying how bored we were and trying to come up with something to do. Jake got off work at 9:00 PM, so the plans that Melissa and Lisa had were basically off, at least until then. Anyways, she suggested that we phone people up and have them over at my house since no one ever comes to my house. I told her that there was a good reason for that – there was nothing to do at my house. The last time people were over, they…Continue Reading
I’m in such a writing mood right now. I feel like I could just sit here and write pages and pages and pages, never stopping even to eat or sleep. This happens every so often, usually when I wake up in a reflective, contemplative mood – like today. I was laying in bed this morning half-awake, and already I had formed two stanzas of a poem in my head. I finished it off in my head during my shower, and then typed it up onto the computer and saved it as soon as I had the chance. And even though I already wrote a quite large entry today in my blog here, I’ve still been itching to just talk about anything and everything.
Let’s put first things first. I called Cineplex Odeon this afternoon, since my mom had left me a note saying they had called yesterday. I left a message in the morning, called again around 12:30 PM or so, and then once more later on, at around 4:30 PM. The third time I called, I actually got ahold of someone. She told me exactly what I was hoping – I got the job there. Mind you, Zeth has told me that it’s not the best job in the world, but I figure if I’ve survived at Quizno’s, and was ready to get a factory job if I needed to, that I can handle it. Any job is a good job at this point, and now I’m intensely thankful.…Continue Reading
Today has been another day of preparing more resumes to be sent out. I’m still hoping against all hope that Bluenotes will call me back so I can just finish up this whole arduous process of trying to find a job. I’ve been praying that God would help me in this, and I’m really hoping that Bluenotes is the place He wants me to work. Why? Well, because that means I don’t have to send out another 10 or 12 resumes and go through the whole process again. I just want to get a job and be finished with this whole thing.
As I had that mindset last night, I picked up the book that I’ve been reading for the past little while, Spiritual Warfare, and kept reading where I last left off. It was talking about wilderness experiences, where God tests us to produce proven character. One line that the author said really stood out to me, though. It was this: “There is not a moment in time when God is not working in you.” It really hit me like a brick to the head. Too often we can look back on our really hard times or something and tell that God was working in us then, but the truth is that He is always working in us. It’s not just when we’re going through a hard time where we need more patience or strength or something. He’s always pouring in more and more of these qualities and working…Continue Reading