Well, I did it. I apologized to Kayla for being such a loser lately. It’s not like I was afraid or nervous to talk to her about it. However, I’m one of those people who hates to admit that they’re wrong. I’ve been known to be in the middle of an argument and suddenly see that the other person is right, yet still continue my side of the argument anyways.
So I admitted that I was wrong. All I did was make fun of her and tell her that the new relationship she was in wouldn’t work out. I told her I’d give it a month. In fact, when she told me about it, I told her I’d start placing bets as to how long it would last. I mean, how pathetically low was that? She’s still my friend, or at least she used to be. I just lost sight of that completely. I exchanged friendship for an outlet to get my anger out. And she doesn’t deserve that. Nobody deserves that.
I apologized to her and I still feel pretty bad about the whole thing. Perhaps I can mend everything up; I sure hope I can anyways. If not, then I suppose that’s what I deserve for doing this. I mean, I claim to be a Christian, and yet I can’t love someone whom God loves? The Bible speaks out endlessly about loving your neighbour as yourself, and about how love is shown to God by loving others. There’s…Continue Reading
I really have nothing to talk about. At all. The last two days have been horribly boring and bland. I mean, not much really happens in my life to begin with, but this has even been below that level. Summer’s so great because you can hang out with people the entire week without school and homework even crossing your mind or getting in the way.
Anyways, I won’t start rambling about the universe or anything, but I’ll post some lyrics to another song I like. I hate songs with no meaning behind them, but then again there are always those songs which only have meaning to the writer of them.
Flicker insideI’ve seen the end, my friendCannot continue in this lifeAbide in the promises toldAbide in the promises provenAbide in the promises told, abide in
Fan the spark of hopeAll is not lost hereI saw the outcome once beforeSo distant, it seems so long ago, He’s still aliveIntercession so strongFan the flame, so close nowAwaken the strength internal
Write it down, make it plainI saw the end once beforeYou were there with your heart in your hand outstretched
Shedding this darknessWith every glance to the skyThe fire is revealing these walls, heart twisting, turningFaithful, sleepless, faithfulBut now I can feelBut now I can taste the air of freedomRipping through, moving wallsRipping down this structureThe air of freedom ripping through me
This song is by Living Sacrifice, a Christian heavy metal band that I found a few years ago. This song…Continue Reading
Hmm. I apologize. My last entry was a little…self-centred? Of course, I’m not sure who I’m apologizing to since it seems like no one really reads this except me (oh well, at least I get to vent without annoying anyone then), but nevertheless, I’m apologizing for what I said earlier today. I realize I have a tendency to complain over little things; then again, understand that most of the time I’m pretty light-hearted about things, and I’ll make a comment to someone that I think is just funny and they take it as a complaint. And I’m not taking back the fact that today was not a good day in my opinion. Then again, all days are good I suppose; it just depends whether you see it that way or not.
So why the change of heart? I was bored so I started reading random blogs that you get by clicking the button in the top right corner that says “Next Blog.” I came across this entry by someone on their blog entitled “On being miserable” – read it over, and maybe it’ll hit you as deeply as it hit me. I’m not quite sure why it had the effect that it did – I’ve read stuff like this before and not even given it a second thought. But today it was different.
At the end of last year, we had a class trip (with grades 11 and 12) to the Royal Ontario Museum. Yay. That was exciting (note…Continue Reading