Today was a pretty reflective day for me. People, for the most part, ignored me, and I didn’t really care, because I was too busy thinking anyway. I found it hard to concentrate, actually, since my mind kept wandering. It’s horrible trying to think about something you don’t want to when your brain is trying to think about something it wants to think about. But anyways, I got to thinking about a few things.
I suppose the biggest thing that’s been on my mind lately has been noticing the changes in my life. Some of these were brought about by sheer self-will, although I’m sure most of it was brought by divine aid – or perhaps a better way of putting it would be that I was divinely aided in developing my self-will. But being completely honest here, I’ve noticed myself becoming a different and better person. Sometimes it’s been so subtle that I’ve barely noticed it – and yet it’s there, and it makes me feel awesome every time I realize what I’m doing.
The first area this has been in is the area of sexual purity. It’s not so much a physical battle – the pressure to have sex isn’t that great in a school of 22 Christians – but rather a mental battle between the lust of the flesh and my desire to do what’s right. My eyes are saying, “Wow, that’s gooooood,” while my mind is saying, “No! Turn away now!” A while ago, the eyes…Continue Reading