Wow, it’s sure been a while, hasn’t it? I can’t say that I’ve been horribly busy. I’ve been home since near the end of April, and haven’t really had much to do other than work. But considering that my only job is a part-time job at the movie theatre that will never start until about 5:00 PM on weekdays (11:00 AM or so on weekends), I have plenty of time to, well, sit around and do nothing, really. My excuse for not updating my blog isn’t that I’ve had a lack of time. Rather, it’s that I’ve had a lack of excitement. Sure, I’ve had a few cool things happen. I’ve hung out with my friends from Brantford and gotten all caught up with their lives again. My friend from Dunnville came down on Monday and hung out with Brittany and me (Brittany’s a friend from school who happens to live in Brantford as well). So I’ve had some fun, and I’ve had a lot of not-so-fun boringness. But oh well. It’s been enjoyable all the same.
However, I decided last night that I am quite looking forward to heading off to camp soon. That starts next Sunday (the one after Father’s Day), and although I seem to flip back and forth between hesitation and excitement about this job, I’ve decided that I’m looking forward to it. I hesitate because it’s not exactly the job I was expecting or wanting for my first coop. I mean, it’s a summer camp, for goodness sake. It didn’t seem like such a great job. But at the same time, it was kind of cool that I got to go to a Christian camp, get paid for it, and have it fulfill my coop requirements as well. At any rate, I look forward to it for at least one reason: I need to get away from the drama.
Yes sir, the past few days and weeks have been horrible as far as drama is concerned. I’m not talking about becoming a mime, or being involved in a play. I’m talking about drama – you know, the rumours, the gossip, the arguing. Yuck. Somehow, wherever I go, and no matter how hard I try to stay away from it, it always finds me somehow. Normally I’m not involved in it, which is nice, but I still hear about it. And that’s almost as bad. At least if I were involved in the drama, I would be able to stop it, but it’s hard to stop gossip from flying around. I suppose it can be done, but it’s sort of like trying to catch a butterfly. So let me indulge myself for a moment and give you a little taste of what I’ve dealt with. I’m not including any names, and most likely anyone reading this won’t know who I’m talking about anyways. If anyone does, they likely know the story already anyways, so it’s not going to make much of a difference. But anyways…
A couple weeks ago, I was out with one of my friends. We were at Williams, just catching up and talking. It was nothing spectacular, but it was enjoyable. Then a couple girls came by and happened to recognize the girl I was with. They came over and said hello, and my friend invited them to sit down and stay awhile. I met the both of them, and they seemed like nice people. We talked for probably a good 20 minutes to a half hour, and then my friend mentioned that she had wanted to go to the park. So we said goodbye, and left. I thought nothing of it. I had met a couple of her friends, and that was that. Then I found out that one of them wasn’t really her “friend.” She didn’t really like her, and her didn’t like she (boy it’s hard not using any names!). That person later added me to Facebook, and we started talking a bit. I found out a bit of what had gone on between them, and had to stop her from insulting my friend. But suddenly I was caught in the middle of a tension that had been going on for at least 2 years. They were pretty much over it, but they just didn’t like each other. However, here I was in the middle. I didn’t want to believe what my friend said about this person – she seemed like a nice girl – and I didn’t want to believe what this person said about my friend – she’s quite nice as well. Oh boy. Drama!
Of course, that’s not it. It never is. This person that added me also used to go out with a guy that I work with. There was some stuff that went on between them as well, and she told me some not-so-nice things about him. And of course, again, my impression of him was that he was a nice guy. More tension, more drama. And I’m still friends with all three of them, due only to my magical ability to stay out of things. It’s not always the easiest thing to do, especially when you meet someone who has a problem with pretty much the only two people you both know. Drama, drama, drama.
There’s more stuff going on at work, as well. People getting angry at other people not doing their jobs, while that other person was actually doing the job of the first person because they were slacking off. What do you say in a situation like that? I try not to take sides, and I’m quite proud of the fact that I can honestly say that I have no enemies at work. That’s a major feat with all the drama that goes on there. The tension escalated last night, and both parties were telling me their side of the story. I basically just listened to them, shook my head, and said nothing. Why? Because drama is not only a waste of time, but it can also be dangerous. I don’t want to lose friends or acquaintances because I decide to side with one of them over another of them. That’s horrible! And yet I’m finding it harder and harder to stay away from the drama, because it keeps following me.
In all of this, I’m just thankful that God is not a God of drama. Thank God for that! Can you imagine? You screw up (which happens quite often to me, at least), and then God decides that He’s just not going to speak to you anymore? He gives you the cold shoulder, and sends one of His friends to go tell you that He doesn’t like you anymore. Sheesh, if that were the case, I think I might as well just send myself to hell immediately – seems like I’d certainly be heading there anyways. If God were a fickle God, constantly making decisions about friendship with us based on our recent actions, then we’re right back with the Greeks, whose gods had so much drama that they wrote entire books about it. Zeus supports one guy, but Poseidon doesn’t like him, so Poseidon tries to kill him while Zeus tries to protect him. Meanwhile, Hermes and Aphrodite hook up, which gets Pan angry, so he tries to kill Hermes. (By the way, I’m not saying that any of this is accurate according to Greek stories. I’m just making this up. But it’s close enough to their stories anyway.) Man, it’s like a soap opera! Can you imagine if God did that? God forgives you, and then decides the next day that, well, He was just being emotional, and that He’s decided He’s still angry at you.
I’m glad that our God is a rock. When He forgives, He forgives unconditionally, and He never changes His mind. When He offers you friendship, He offers it to you despite what you’ve done, are doing, and are going to do. When He loves you, He loves you always and forever. Wow. I wish I could do that. I like to think that I’m pretty even-handed and accepting, but even I have people that I just don’t really like. But not God. He’s already decided that He loves us, and He’s even sealed the deal by sending His Son. And that’s never going to change. Now that’s awesome.