It’s been an interesting day. Since it was a shortened day today, I had to wake up earlier (since my first period spare was shorter). After I did so, I found out that I actually didn’t have to wake up so early, because my dad was driving my mom to work, and therefore, I had the car, so I didn’t have to take the bus. That left me with a lot of free time before school. While this normally might not be too amazing an event in itself, and could possibly have left me quite bored, the strangest thing happened which made everything just much more interesting.
To tell the truth, I’m not sure whether to attribute this to God or just a strange coincidence. What I’ve learned over the years, though, is that coincidences are not as common as some think. God is definitely active and working at every moment of every day, and while I can’t speak on His behalf as to just how much is random chance due to someone’s free will and what’s actually Him, I’ve seen that situations that seem to be coincidental often turn out to have something that makes them influential in someone’s life. With that said, what could be so amazing about getting up early? Well, I’m glad you asked.
My sister came home this weekend for her reading week. My dad actually took her back today, but for some reason every time she leaves, she feels the need to empty out our house as she does so. A couple days ago, I came downstairs to find the nice, fancy bookshelf we’ve had down there forever all emptied out, and the books in piles on the floor. I thought nothing of it, but there was another sort of shelf in the old one’s place, so I figured it wasn’t too much of a loss. Today, when I woke up, I was sort of wrestling with God a bit in prayer. Ever since the Youth Retreat, I had promised Him that I would wake up early one morning to pray and hopefully hear His voice in regard to some of the things I learned over Retreat. As of yet, I haven’t done so. I wanted to make sure that my sleeping patterns were somewhat returned to normal, but with late nights at work, things haven’t really done so. I was planning on waking up early today, but then I remembered the early dismissal thing, and realized that I was already going to have to wake up early. So, as I got ready for my day this morning, I was just asking God for guidance, and promising Him that tomorrow, I would set my alarm half an hour early and spend that time with Him (just a note: my alarm is set and ready).
At the same time that these thoughts were running through my head, another thought also emerged: If I’m going to spend half an hour of my morning with God, I sure hope He speaks to me. And more importantly, I sure hope I hear what He says. It was with this attitude that I went downstairs to the computer. I had time to kill, and as I turned on the computer, I got up out of my chair and turned around to get my guitar from behind me. I was planning on playing some worship songs or something. As I did so, something caught my eye. Three books were stacked on the new shelf right beside my guitar, and the top one was called Is That Really You, God?, the subtitle being “Hearing the Voice of God.” Inside, my jaw dropped to the floor. As I said, I’m not sure how much to attribute to God Himself and His workings; all I know is that there was a book containing the exact information I needed, right at the time when I needed it. And why were those three books stacked on the shelf? I have no clue. They were separated from all the other piles of books. And why was that one on the top? Who knows? Coincidence? It’s a pretty astounding one, if so.
So I began to read. It was written by Loren Cunningham, the founder of Youth With a Mission, and it so wonderfully narrates the amazing story of YWAM’s humble beginnings, as well as sneaks in principles for hearing God’s voice and relying on His guidance. It was exactly what I needed. There, sitting in front of my computer, I started to read. It’s only perhaps half an inch thick, but as of now I’m about three quarters of the way done. I just couldn’t put it down. I couldn’t help but get the feeling that I should be taking notes – and I’m definitely going to at least go through it again and do so.
For over an hour and a half, I read this gripping book. And even though I went and hung out with Kristin, Michelle, and Jordan today after the shortened day of school, the words on the pages still clung to me and whirled around in my mind. After making plans with Kristin over the phone to do something, I was seriously considering calling her up at the last minute and cancelling just so I could finish reading the book. I don’t want to do my homework, and I debated coming down to type this entry. All I want to do is read the book that I believe will prepare me for my time tomorrow with God. I believe very strongly that He’s been trying to get something through to me, and I just haven’t been able to hear Him because I’ve been too preoccupied with my own busy schedule. It’s as if God’s been broadcasting on one frequency, and I have my radio slightly off-tune, so that His voice is barely a crackle on the static-filled airwaves. And so, I’m prepared to shut off all the other interference for half an hour tomorrow and just focus on Him. Nothing else is more important at the moment. And though I haven’t yet finished the book, I plan to do so before heading off to work tonight.
So, with that said, I’m done. I have a bit of Chemistry homework to finish, and then I’m going straight back upstairs and finishing that book. Because honestly, I need guidance right now. I feel like I’m standing on the edge of my future, and there are a million different paths that lead to who-knows-where. If I don’t get God’s specific and clear instruction, I’m going to end up just choosing the path that seems right to me at the time. And as the Bible says, “There is a way that seems right to a man, but in the end it leads to death.” (Prov. 14:12; 16:25) You know if something is repeated in the same book of the Bible twice, it must be important. So here I stand, waiting for God. And I know if I do so, He will speak to me. Please pray for me, that God’s message would ring clear in my heart, and that I would do what He tells me to do. Thank you in advance.