I’m not even sure where to begin today. So much stuff happened today that my mind is just swimming in a giant pool of disoriented thoughts. To paint the picture for you, imagine a massive swimming pool – and I mean big. Now put in some water, which represents my thoughts. These thoughts have to be swirling and twirling in random fashion, creating eddies and currents every which way. Now throw in a brain. As far as I know, brains aren’t very keen swimmers, so it will likely do more sinking than swimming. Now, have that all in your head? That’s me right now. Yes, I know it’s quite a long introduction just for a pathetic word picture, but bear with me. I wanted to make a long first paragraph, after all.
As that horrid lady in the revolting, gruesome horror movie The Sound of Music once said, “Let’s start at the very beginning – a very good place to start.” Actually, scratch that. Let’s start before the beginning, which in this case is last night. I had to work from 6 to 12, and those six hours were about the longest six of my life. Well actually, I’ve likely had worse, but these hours were definitely in the top ten of longest hours in my life. Even though it was a weeknight, it was still fairly busy since we have a new movie out, The Exorcism of Emily Rose. I personally don’t want anything to do with that movie, since I really don’t want to get into all that stuff. I know that demons are real, but that doesn’t mean I have to sit and watch a two-hour movie about them. That makes them seem unreal if anything, and that’s exactly what they’d like you to think. Anyways, with the amount of people in the theatres, it wasn’t large enough to keep me busy so that I didn’t have my eye on the time every thirty seconds. However, it also was busy enough so that I had a horrible time cleaning theatres all by myself. Most of them weren’t that bad, but when I got to the one with The Exorcism of Emily Rose in it, the entire place was a mess. It took me an entire 15 minutes to clean the theatre – compared with about 2 minutes each for the other theatres.
Anyways, after work, I came home dead tired. Because I was working, though, I didn’t have much time before I left to do any of my homework. That meant using my spare for something constructive. I woke up early and cut some cardboard for the mousetrap car that we have to build in Physics, and also did some of my Geometry homework. I was almost ready to pack it up and go catch the bus, when suddenly I remembered that I hadn’t made a lunch for myself. I quickly (and I mean quickly) made myself a sandwich and then rushed outside. I ended up waiting for the bus, but I guess that’s just the way things go with the unpredictable bus schedule – you have to rush outside just to sit and wait.
I got to school, put my stuff in my locker, and to kill off time, I walked around the hallways a couple of times. I think people probably noticed how I kept walking past them, so they probably think I’m a freak, but whatever. Knowing the truth won’t hurt them. Chemistry class was fairly normal, except for a Grade 11 assembly during a part of it, and then came lunch. Now, on Wednesdays at lunch, there’s a group called Impact that meets. It’s a group composed entirely of Christians, and they get together and do stuff to impact the school, hence the name. I had asked Angelie the day before when and where it was, and she didn’t know, but she told me that they usually announce it on the PA in the morning. Since I’m not there in the morning, though, I had to find out when it was. I went and sat with Becky and Kristin in the cafeteria for a little while, then asked them about it. She said that she thought they said Room 114 at 12:00, so I said that was fine. I then looked up at the clock and saw that it was about 11:55. So I headed over to find Angelie just to double-check, since Kristin said she wasn’t really sure where it was and such. Angelie was over by Room 117 as usual, and so I talked to her and we got things straightened out. We found the room and went inside.
Everyone was in a circle, sitting on chairs, and they had apparently just played the name game. That meant that I didn’t know anybody’s name, but whatever. I knew Angelie, Jon, and Jared, so that was fine. We went over some of the stuff that was coming up, such as See You at the Pole and everything. It was interesting, I guess. I mean, we didn’t really do anything at all except talk about what we’re going to do eventually. I can’t stand stuff like that. I don’t like planning stuff out and then not doing anything about it. I like to plan and then get right into it, right away. I suppose some people feel a sense of accomplishment once they get things planned out, but not me. Anyways, at the end, we got into groups and prayed for the upcoming year and stuff. It was pretty good, and I’m sure things will be more interesting at the next meeting.
After lunch, it was back to normal, with Physics and Geometry. In Physics, we started another project, which was to build a tower out of drinking straws that could hold 500 grams of weight. Jon and I are in a group together, and we started working on this massive pyramid. The tower has to be one metre in height, so we made a big triangle out of little triangles. At the end of the period, though, I think we decided to scrap it. It just wasn’t working out. Even with two other sides built the same way, it would be too flimsy to hold anything. So now we have to come up with a new design. I’m thinking of suggesting several smaller structures connected together to make a big one. Anyways, it was pretty much a waste of an entire class since we’ll likely scrap the whole thing, but whatever. At least we figured out what not to build.
Geometry class was fairly normal until near the end when it started to rain. I looked through the windows and just groaned. It was pouring rain, and I knew that I had to walk out to the bus stop after school. Class eventually ended, and that’s exactly what I did. While walking, I just sort of prayed to God, “Hey, I know I screwed up today a few times, but honestly, was this rain really necessary? I would have learned my lesson.” Of course, I was joking, but still. I think God’s got a sense of humour, so He’d understand. But being honest, I really did screw up today. If there’s one thing that I find hard at North Park, it’s that there’s a lot of girls there who just could care less about what’s going on in guys’ minds with the way they dress. I find it hard to keep my mind on track with what the girls wear there. I’m being brutally honest with myself here, because I know that I can’t just expect them to respect my personal convictions. It’s me that has to change, not them. But I’ve been working on this. I’m still not there, but I’m making progress. Some days are better than others, and some days are more of a struggle. Yesterday was a good day; today was not so good. I gave it a valiant effort for the most part, but sometimes you just go down fighting against your sin nature. Anyways, that’s been the struggle for me. Enough said there.
I was sitting on the bus coming home and wondering what I was going to do tonight, when several things hit me. The first thing I remembered was that I didn’t have to work tonight. I got my new schedule last night and apparently I have to work Thursday, Friday, and Saturday. It’s going to be brutal. Anyways, I was contemplating that, and wondering what I was going to do. I was thinking, “Oh okay, I don’t have to work, so I want to hang out with someone tonight if I can. I’ll call Melissa or Jeff or someone and do something fun.” Then I remembered that I had Geometry homework. That threw a wrench in the plans somewhat, but I just decided that I’d do my homework when I got home, and then I’d still have plenty of time to do something. So I was thinking about that, happy that I could actually have a social life for tonight, when suddenly I remembered – Life Groups tonight. Tonight is when the Under Cover video series starts at my church. And I reminded myself that I had agreed to go to that. I hadn’t agreed to anyone else, but I had agreed with myself, and I’m a man of my word, even if I’m the only one that I gave my word to. I had decided that I was going to get involved in my church as much as possible, and to skip out on the first night just wasn’t going to happen.
So that dampened my spirits a little bit. I guess it was alright, considering the rest of me was already damp from the pouring rain. I’m sure tonight will be good all the same, even though I had to give up hanging out with my friends. It’s just something that I have to do, and sometimes things that I know are the right thing to do take some sacrifice. My only consolation is that likely nobody would be free to do anything tonight anyways. And besides, who wants to do anything when it’s raining?
So that was pretty much my entire day. It was pretty busy, just because I had a million things on my mind for most of the time. There’s a whole bunch of things that I have to remember, and I’m starting to burn myself out. With long, late hours at work, school, homework, and other things that I have to do, it’s getting to be a lot. This morning was brutal, with not a minute to spare, rushing here and there. I have a feeling that it’s going to be like this for a little while longer, too – at least until the end of the week. Since I’m working three days in a row, I’m going to have to figure out the best way to manage my time and get everything done. It’ll be a challenge, for sure, but I’m hoping that soon things will die down as routine gets established. So many things start up during September, and I’m just going to be glad when I start to figure out what day and time everything is going on, so that I can figure out what I can do and what I can’t. Anyways, God is my source of strength, and there’s definitely a bountiful supply there, so we’ll see how things go. That’s it for today. Now excuse me while I do the forty-three hundred other things that need to be done.