I’m really not sure what to say today. It finally hit me during the Parenting exam – I’m graduating. Little ol’ Jeff is graduating. Tonight. That just freaks me out a little bit, as well as excites me tremendously. I mean, I made it through four years of BCC! I actually survived, though the insanity flew ’round about me like a whirlwind. Actually, I was probably the cause of most of the insanity, but still – I survived. Man, that Parenting exam was hard to write – not because I didn’t know the answers, but because the reality of my impending graduation finally got to me and distracted me completely.
So what does a graduating student have to say? Obviously not much. I could write a book on just the things I’m feeling right now, but it’d probably have a lot of repetition in it. Have you ever had that feeling where you just have to tell someone what keeps running around in your head? Where you’re just so excited that you have to yell and scream and dance around with someone or else you’ll explode? Yeah, that’s what I’m feeling right now. I got out of the Parenting exam and went straight over to Lana. I said, “We’re done! Holy crap! How does it feel to have finished your very last high school exam?” It’s so strange. I don’t even know how to describe how I’m feeling right now. It’s mostly excitement mixed in with a bit of nervousness and a whole lot of…I don’t know…strangeness. I suppose I’m going to miss the school and all the people in it; they’ve really become my best friends, and I really don’t know what I’m going to do without them. But I really haven’t thought about that yet. Right now I’m just so excited that this time of my life is over, and now I’m moving on to bigger and better things. True, I still have another year of high school, but it’s going to be at a new school with more than 22 people, so it’s going to be something completely new for me. It’s just going to be awesome, that’s all I can say.
The part I’m most nervous about for tonight is my speech. All three graduates have to say a little something, and I’m freaked out about that. I’ve got my outline written up, and I still have to type it up, but I’m not sure at all whether it’s long enough or too long. Then there’s the fact that my parents are going to be there tonight. That’s the part I’m most nervous about. I mean, nothing I could say up there would ever make them not proud of me, and I know that. But that’s just the problem. I know that while I’m up there, and even when I’m not, my mom is going to have this huge, beaming smile on her face at her son who’s finally graduating. And because I know that, I have the mental picture in my head, and it’s freaking me out. I’m not going to be able to look at them tonight when I’m up there, even though I’m thanking them in my speech. It’s going to be murder, that’s all I can say. Oh well; I only have to do this once, so I just have to get it over with and then get onto bigger and better things, like getting drunk at a big grad party. Wait, did I just say that? Just kidding…it won’t be big.
I guess that’s all I have to say for today. I just can’t get over the fact that this part of my life is finally coming to an end. I mean, on the one hand, it’s only been four years, but on the other hand, it’s been so many days of school, that it seems like it’s been forever. It just seems like I’ve been in BCC forever, and I’m not saying that as a bad thing, just as the fact that I’ve been going there for four years, and it seems more like I’ve never been anywhere else. But I guess that’s enough rambling on about this whole thing, since the more I think about it the less I want to go tonight. I just have to do it and get it over with, and then I get to enjoy the fact that I actually made it – and lived to tell the tale. Plus, I get to look sexy in a shnazzy suit tonight, so that’s cool. But anyways, I have a speech to type up. Then I should actually pick out a tie. Hmm, yeah, that’d be good. Ta ta.